f.r.i.e.n.d.s

I really don’t know how to define a friend. Maybe I do but I don’t know how to spell it out. I have many, everyone does, and we cant do without them (at least some of them). Sometimes it takes time to make friends and at other times it doesn’t. Isn’t it amazing to think of how we relate to them and they to us? And you know what I find fascinating? When I think of how two completely different human beings, who haven’t known anything about each other, haven’t seen each other, lived separate lives – one day come to share, talk and relate. At times it takes a while to get to know a person and to become good friends and at other times, it doesn’t. Doesn’t it sound like magic?! How two people know each other inside out? And trust and rely on each other completely? Life changes fast when such things happen.
Sometimes I wonder what I’ll do without my friends. I think of a situation when one fine day I get up in the morning and realize I’ve got no friends. Scary…. Isn’t it?! Maybe I’m too attached to them.
The sad part of this whole thing is the leaving part. I really don’t know why but I don’t believe in this thing of ‘friends forever’ which people so often say. Maybe because situations, other people and the twists and turns of life have always taken my friends away from me. Always. And it hurts when this happens. It might be more for those who are more attached to each other and less for those who are less but it brings life to such a halt. Don’t know why but it’s like the end of a chapter or the road coming to an end. A very smooth road! It’s worse if one person is more attached and one less and its even worse if its one of those cloooose ones. There are those who love making friends and have many and there are those who love making friends but have few! Guess the latter find it more difficult to let go when the times comes. And you know what? The psyching part is we can never know when it can happen. It can happen as fast as it started. When you get to know it, it’s like hitting a wall. The reasons can be many. Life might take them away to other places, they might be just there but not there (you know what I mean?) or they might even find love. But the truth is that those people will never again be able to share, relate to and talk again. It can also happen gradually when the fact that the magic is gone is quite apparent. This is like slow death.
For all those who are my friends let me tell you. Life is difficult without you! Don’t leemee. Be there for as long as you can. For all those who have been my friends but are now far away or busy or going away or just not there, I miss you. Wish I had you for life! I might not express it often or I might not have till now but I now am. I’ve had amazing friends all these 23 years of my life. They come, stay there and go but always leave their mark and I value those marks. Thank you for being my friend... A lifetime is not enough to live as friends.